Monday, May 25, 2009

pain and its ever dwelling nature.

I have approximately 15 scars on my body.  I can probably tell you the story behind each one.  Tripping on a flight of escalators (knee).  Broken glass from a car accident (hand).  Running blindfolded into a window sill (head).  These are but a few.  And they're not even that comparable to others I have seen (ACL tears, gunshot wounds)

The visual reminder that these scars give are, when examined, interesting.  I can't believe that all of these events actually occurred.  But every time I see my scars, I am thoroughly and vividly reminded of the insufficiency of my body to ever be healed to its original state.

What's worse, at times, is the ever gnawing deep, emotional pain.  Broken relationships, divorces, death all leave tremendous wounds on our souls, on the very being of who we are.  And these scars are not visible, but abundantly more painful to us, especially when we are reminded of these situations.  These emotional wounds may have begot physical ones, or vice versa, but nevertheless, some of these run deep, especially when these wounds are combined into one.

Tonight, I was reminded about some of these.  Some of these pains that have shaped me into who I am today.  Other pains that were brought on by the ones I thought of.  But I cannot even compare.  

Look at Him, and you'll see pain. Look to the One whose hands and feet only minimally showed the infinite wrath that was poured out upon Him.  Look to the One who had not a single reason to be murdered.  Look to the One who endured scorn and shame from men and demons.  Look to the One, and you'll see pain.

But.  In the midst of pain, our pains and His, is the renewable, abundant, triumphant, eternal love of the Father, Son, and Spirit.

Look to the Three in One, and you'll see love.  Look to the One who would send His Son to die for His people.  Look to the One who could overcome such pain because of an eternal and holy love for His people.  Look to the One who came to aid us in our times of needs and pain.  Look to them, and you'll see love.  

Luke 24:39-40
39 See my hands and my feet, that it is I myself. Touch me, and see. For a spirit does not have flesh and bones as you see that I have.” 40 And when he had said this, he showed them his hands and his feet.

John 3:14-17
14 And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, so must the Son of Man be lifted up, 15 that whoever believes in him may have eternal life. 16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. 17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. 

Friday, May 22, 2009

birthday present!

I recently got my birthday present to myself.

Six books:
God, Marriage, and Family: Rebuilding the Biblical Foundation, Andreas Kostenberger and David W. Jones
What is a Healthy Church Member, Thabiti M. Anyabwile
Respectable Sins: Confronting the Sins We Tolerate, Jerry Bridges
Vintage Church, Mark Driscoll
Finally Alive, John Piper
Living the Cross Centered Life, C.J. Mahaney

YAY!  Hopefully, I can get all this read over the summer.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Lack of persistence is the only limit to knowing someone.
- Anonymous

Sunday, May 3, 2009

can't sleep.

i saw someone lose a life today. it's haunting me to the point of insomnia.